Do you have those moments?

Do you have those moments?

You know the ones

when the world feels

like it is fighting you.

When the world feels like

it is fighting,

against you.

Do you have those moments?

You know the ones when

all these moments

get longer

and

turn into days.

You accept

the defeat.

Tired,

confused,

worn out

from the struggle

to break free

of the 'against'.

Do you have those moments?

You know the ones

when you feel

so utterly alone,

so scared,

at the thought

that this is the way

it will be forever.

You mind unravels,

no matter what you do,

no matter what you say,

no matter what you think,

it will never change?

You ask yourself,

why me?

why is this happening?

why am I being punished?

Do you have those moments?

You know the ones

when you scream

to no one,

but yourself.

I did everything.

I tried.

I never gave up.

I did everything right.

The silent answer,

burns deep in your soul.

Do you have those moments?

You know the ones,

when you question

if you are

even

worth an answer,

worth the good,

worth the love.

Do you have those moments?

You know the ones when you ask

am I enough?

Is this life,

this existence,

worth it?

Instead of the walls of isolation

coming down,

they get higher,

they thicken

and lengthens.

A way out is

inconceivable.

Do you have those moments?

The ones when you feel

no one is listening,

no one is hearing,

no one is seeing

you fall.

You reach for help,

you want help,

but the world

you are trapped in,

is empty.

Do you have those moments?

I do.

I get it.

I understand.

You are not alone.