The but of the try

I try

and I keep

trying

for so long

it was all I

did

try

then try

and try some more

each time I tell myself

this one will be different

this time it will happen

this time it will

but it doesn’t

and I lie to myself

again

tell myself to try

because next time

next time

if I try it will happen

but I lie to myself

it never changes

it never happens

so

I don’t lie to myself anymore

I speak the truth

you can try

but it won’t happen

nothing will change

you can try

or you can stop

lay down

and just surrender to

the truth

it won’t happen

it won’t change

it won’t be different

you can try

but this time

don’t expect different

this time

I don’t try

I give up

I give in

I stop

I surrender