I spin around. Turning in circles. my eyes out wide. My head giddy.
My body propelled by a force of its own.
My feet turn and turn faster and faster.
My body exhausted. No balance. My feet trip and I fall to my knees.
My eyes lower.
I can not spin with my world.
So I stop.
And watch my world spin around me.
Flashes of my life. A life disconnected. The loneliness washes over me. The isolation paralysing.
I can not step into my world. I can not spin. I want it to stop. But it keeps spinning. My hand reaches towards my life. Aching for connection. Burdened with loneliness.
Defeated by the spin. I sit and wait.
For peace in the stillness to allow me entry back into my life. For my soul to align. My feet to ground. My body to balance.
I sit and watch my world. I breathe.
Slowly my world stops spinning.
I breathe again and stand up. Stronger.
I survived the spin.
I am ready.
I step back into my world.