why me I ask?

why me I ask?
what have I done?
am I being punished?
the pain
the hurt
the torture
of life
consumes
the soul
of my
being
and
threatens
to extinguish
the light
that lives
inside of me.
my light
my essence
staves off
the impenetrable
darkness.
when will it end?
when will I feel
the calm
peace
how long
can I keep going?
exhausted
scared
tired
alone
why me I ask?